I Was Knocked Down But I Won’t Stay Down

It was a very sunny day, I was sad because I had just left an interview and it appeared that I would not get the job. I was walking down the road, I decided to buy some things that I wanted. Then I saw her. I must say, I never thought anything could brighten my day but her beauty was stunning. I got my stuff and left the store. A week or two later I met her at an occasion. I walked over her and we started talking. I felt lucky to get her contact information and we started chatting most evenings. She is a zodiac sign freak and mine matched hers. This was exactly why she enjoyed talking to me too. We continued this for months and got to know each other in the process. After a few of dates, we fell in love and started dating.

After two years, I married to Kate, yes, that’s her name. It was a wonderful feeling and I believed that she brought good luck with her because I got a better job a few weeks after our wedding. She worked for a major company in the city and she was taking care of our expenses until I started my job. I wasn’t happy with this, but she kept on assuring me that everything would be fine. Our first three years was peaceful, we were happy, making money, attending parties with our friends and hosting them at our place sometimes.

The relationship I had with Kate was a life changing one, yes, it made me better and then later knocked me down. Things started falling apart when I got scammed. I was trying to invest our savings to make more money, I was foolish and I made a bad decision without discussing it with Kate. 70% of the savings was from Kate’s earnings because she had a better job. This made her very angry and she moved out for weeks. My friend James, who I call JM, helped me talk to Kate. She moved back in but little did I know I had lost her!

Things didn’t go back to normal with Kate’s return. She stopped discussing things with me and I felt like I was living with a stranger. Things got worse when her movements became questionable and it was saddening to realize that I could not trust her. I knew the gravity of what I had done and I was so sorry it happened. I even promised to work an extra job to replace the money. I promised her that just to let her know how sorry I was but even I knew that amount of money was too much for me to earn. After a few months she started complaining about every single thing from my low income job to how I walked. She made me feel like everything about me was wrong.

I won’t bore you with the whole scandal, but I later found out she was having an affair with JM. Yeah, I was shocked too. I even figured out that the affair started before I was scammed. In fact, she was with him during the time that she moved out. Basically, JM was only pretending to help us. I was down for days after this revelation. Exactly two weeks later she filed for divorce. Although I wasn’t surprised, I felt like my life was over. The shock of the cheating was still all over me and she filed for divorce? I was going crazy. Even though she was aware that I still loved her, she made sure the divorce process moved along quickly. I tried my best to persuade her to give me another chance but she had made up her mind.

After the divorce, I wasn’t myself. I stopped going to work and I started drinking too much alcohol. I think of her daily and I reminisce on our time together. We were planning to have a baby the following year and now that dream has been shattered. Some of my friends were supportive but they later got tired too.

Months after, I decided that I had been down long enough, I got a part time job and I started working virtually too. Up until now as I am writing this, I still do remember her and I always hope she’s happy. Every Jack will find his Jill, I hope I find mine too.

Joseph A